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| Something I wrote--I was bored. |
[04 Apr 2005|03:39pm] |
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Sometimes at night I stare at the ceiling,
I just lay there and think,
I think about you,
I think about you and what life might have been like,
with you.
But I'll never find out,
You don't want a life with me,
I'll never figure out why,
I thought everything was fine,
Everything was good,
But I guess not.
Nothing is fine,
Nothing is good,
Nothing at all,
Everything sucks.
Thats life.
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| I dont get you anymore.. :-/ |
[30 Mar 2005|04:36pm] |
Hey.
It's been awhile since I updated, so I really dont know where to start.
I havent been doing much later. Just been sitting around.
I'm a boring person huh?
Well, I dont have any friends, I guess thats the reason, haha.
Anyways, my family is killing me at the moment.
I hate them.
Well not all of them.
Just.. nvm thats it.
Today was okay.
I played baseball.
It was fun. I wasnt hitting too good at first then I started hitting good.
I'm awesome.
I really am.
Haha.
I just took some pictures, and now I'm bored.
I dunno.
I'll update sometime later.
I just dont get you anymore.
Bye
-Matt
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| If you want to get your soul to heaven.. |
[14 Mar 2005|10:32am] |
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Hey.
I haven't wrote in here much since I made it.
I just haven't been in the mood to tell people what's been going on.
Any ways, not much has been going on.
I wish I wasn't here anymore.
It would be so much easier.
Easier for everyone.
I think so any ways.
I truly do hate it here.
I don't know.
I don't know how anyone could be happy.
I thought I was happy.
But... I don't know..
I'm scared.
Scared I'm going to do it again.
I don't want to..
..but I see no reason not to.
What happened?
We drifted so far apart.
We don't even talk anymore.
I miss you.
You meant a lot to me.
But now your gone.
Like everyone else.
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| Why can't we not be sober? |
[06 Mar 2005|12:12am] |
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Hey.
It's Saturday. Incase you didn't know.
Yesterday was Friday, obviously.
Iunno, maybe they could've changed the days around...
Who knows?
Anyways,
I went to school yesterday, first time all week.
It was alright.
I didn't have to make up as much work as I thought I would've had to.
But I did have to stay after to get some help with my Algebra.
That sucked.
Mr. Costantino is a scary dude..
I don't like him much... oh well.
Then I came home, got changed.
Then I went to the store cause I was thirsty and there was nothing to drink.
Then when I got back Roman asked to have a catch.
So I did.
It was boring though.
..It usually is.
Then I got home.
Ordered a pizza 'cause me and Kevin were hungry.
I <3 Aramingo's Best.
Then Pat came down and asked me to walk him to Gamestop.
So I did.
But we had to go to his moms first.
Eh, lol.
Then we walked to Gamestop and he got what he wanted.
And on the way home his girly called him.
So we went to her house.
Then we left.
Then I got home,
And I watched the Sixers game.
They won.
'Cause Webber is a beast.
Then I played Roman in MVP Baseball.
Then he left.
Then I went online.
I talked to Brittany all night.
Well not all night.. 'cause she left early..
BUM!
Eh, that's all.
I'm Tired.
I'm Bored.
and I miss you....
"I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you,
just enough to bring you down"
- Matt...
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| Forever didn't last such a long time.... |
[03 Mar 2005|09:07pm] |
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Well. I havent updated in awhile.
Ive been kinda sick.
Well not kinda, I am sick.
IVe been sick since last Friday, it wont go away.
I dont care tho, I havent been in school all week.
Its fun.
I dont wanna go back.
Lifes been boring tho.
I aint doing anything anymore.
All I do is sit here..
Most of the time hoping she'll talk to me.
But she never does.
I dunno why.
I guess its my fault.
I guess.
Anyways I dont have much to write because I havent been to school.
Lifes boring.
Im sick.
I have an ear infection.
and a throat infection.
and this cough wont go away.
ahh.
Whatever.
Me no care anymore.
Yup. Dont care!
Haha Yay.
Matt.
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| Yeah.. right. |
[25 Feb 2005|10:19am] |
Isn't it funny how when things get just a little bit better, everything else gets so much worse?
Oh oh.. and I love how I get blammed for 90% of the shit that happens.
Hah
-Matt
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| Why she had to go, I don't know.. She wouldn't say. |
[21 Feb 2005|03:47pm] |
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Hey.
What's Up?
Just sitting here bored. I didn't have school today.
I'm so bored.
Roman and Kevin are playing NBA Live.
We just got done playing GoldenEye.
I can't believe we still play that game.
It's alteast 8 years old.
I don't care, I love it.
Anyways.
My weekend was pretty dull.
Friday:
I didn't do anything, didn't even go over Jackies.
I think Friday was a bad night.
I can't remember tho.
Oh well.
Saturday.
I'm pretty sure I just laid in bed all day Saturday.
I think Saturday was a bad night too.
I didn't sleep Saturday night.
I stayed up all night just sitting on my couch.
It was fun, I guess.
Sunday.
I didn't get any sleep.
Um.. I went over Jackies.
Erik and Eddie were there as well.
I played Resident Evil 4, for Erik.
Then we ate pizza..
and then we played Pictionary.
Me and Erik won.
Because we're beastly.
"ROCKET PENIS!"
lmao.
Okay.
That's all.. I guess.
Bye
- † Matt †
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[15 Feb 2005|07:47pm] |
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I' m bored.
I'm always bored.
Today was really boring.
I can't really remember much of what I did tho.
I know I went to school.
Duh.
Well, I woke up.
Took a shower.
Went to school.
Went to my classes in the following order:
English
Accounting/Finance
Homeroom
Algebra
Chemistry
Lunch
Theology
American History
German
Another boring day.
I don't know if I'm gonna do anything later.
I want to. But I don't.
I dunno, I guess I'm just tired.
Oh well, I'll write more some other time.
Bye
-♠Matt†
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[10 Feb 2005|02:57pm] |
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Okay, so its been awhile.
This week has been okay.
Monday
I don't really remember.
I know that not much happened in school.
I guess everyone was still depressed about the Eagles game.
Oh well.
I played football after school.
I still kick ass.
Tuesday.
Yesterday was a boing day.
I dont remember what I did much
I played football after school again.
I also talked to Megan on the phone last night.
Today.
Today was boring.
It was Ash Wednesday.
No meat *sigh*
lol.
I had no 8th period today.
That was nice.
Well now I'm done. lol
Bye
-Matt†
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[04 Feb 2005|02:12pm] |
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Why does life piss me off all the time?
Why cant I just be happy for once?
Everything always goes against me..
Why??
I wish I knew..
Oh well..
-Matt†
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| Lovely lovely lovely. |
[01 Feb 2005|03:14pm] |
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Day was boring.
School sucked.
Passes Algebra.
Yay.
I dont know..
Dont care anymore.
Bye
- Matt †
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| My lovely Day... ha |
[31 Jan 2005|03:13pm] |
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Hey.
Today was boring.
I don't like my First Period (English3) but I'm really good at it.
I don't like my Second Period (Accounting) either. I hate that class.
I really hate my Third Period (Algebra2) I really suck at that. Lol.
I don't like my Fourth Period (Chemistry) much either. I'm okay at it..
I like Fifth Period (Lunch) thats obvious. I'm fat.
I had no Sixth Period (Theology3) today.. I'm glad.
I don't like Seventh Period (American History) much either. Oh well..
I like my Eighth Period (German3) although I wish I had no eighth. Oh well.
Eh, I hate my life lately. Don't feel like getting into it.
Bye.
- †Matt†
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| YO! |
[27 Jan 2005|06:49pm] |
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Hey
Well, today was alright.
I woke up..
Took a shower..
Got washed down..
Washed my hair..
Got dressed..
Went to school..
Went to my locker..
Got my pencil..
Went to take my first exam, which was Algebra..
I did alright, I think..
It was pretty easy..
Then I went to my second exam, which was American History..
It was really easy..
I went to my locker..
Put my things away..
Went to the El Station..
Got on the train..
Got off the train..
Waited for the bus, got on the bus, got off the bus..
Went home, Went online..
Played football..
We kicked ass as usual..
Then I came home..
Play AoM with Phill..
Then I watched a movie..
Now here I am..
All in all an okay day. lol.
That's all.
-Matt♠
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[22 Jan 2005|11:47am] |
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
*I died from suicide?
*I said I liked you?
*I kissed you?
*I lived next door to you?
*I started smoking?
*I stole something?
*I was hospitalized?
*I ran away from home?
*I got into a fight and you weren't there?
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
*Personality?
*Eyes?
*Face?
*Hair?
*Clothes?
*Manners?
*Family?
WOULD YOU:
*Be my friend?
*Lie to make me feel better?
*Spread rumors about me?
*Keep a secret if I told you one?
*Loan me some cash?
*Hold my hand?
*Take a bullet for me?
*Keep in touch?
*Try and solve my problems?
*Love me?
*Date me?
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[16 Jan 2005|09:59pm] |
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Hey.
I havent really updated much lately.
I dunno why.
Well I probably do, but I dunno.
Whatever.
Ive been really bored.
I guess you could say depressed.
Im not sure tho.
I dont know whats going on much anymore.
Its all confusion?
Yeah.
Well this weekend wasnt bad.
Not bad at all.
I guess.
Friday I went over Jackies.
Then on Saturday I had to get up at 7.
I had Model UN.
It was in Collegeville.
It was fun.
or I should say funny.
The Chair was really hot.
lol.
And my group was funny.
Some girl was "huger"
Someone else said "let nip this in the bud"
HAHA.
Someone from my school was stealing silverware.
oh, and Icecream cones.
lmao.
That was great.
The bus ride home was depressing.
I fell asleep.
lol, I dont know why.
but I was really tired.
Today was alright(SUNDAY for you dumb people)
I got up around 11
I watched the Eagles kick the Vikings asses.
Roman was mad.
lol
Thats always fun.
Oh well.
Not much else I can write.
Yeah.
Life sucks.
To all the kids out there:
DONT grow old and DONT fall for girls.
Best advise you'll ever receive.
Okay Bye.
- Matt
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