You have the right and ability to become my PERFECT enemy

Something I wrote--I was bored.

2005-04-04T19:39:55Z

Sometimes at night I stare at the ceiling,
I just lay there and think,
I think about you,
I think about you and what life might have been like,
with you.
But I'll never find out,
You don't want a life with me,
I'll never figure out why,
I thought everything was fine,
Everything was good,
But I guess not.
Nothing is fine,
Nothing is good,
Nothing at all,
Everything sucks.
Thats life.

I dont get you anymore.. :-/

2005-03-30T21:36:58Z

Hey.
It's been awhile since I updated, so I really dont know where to start.
I havent been doing much later. Just been sitting around.
I'm a boring person huh?
Well, I dont have any friends, I guess thats the reason, haha.
Anyways, my family is killing me at the moment.
I hate them.
Well not all of them.
Just.. nvm thats it.

Today was okay.
I played baseball.
It was fun. I wasnt hitting too good at first then I started hitting good.
I'm awesome.
I really am.
Haha.

I just took some pictures, and now I'm bored.
I dunno.
I'll update sometime later.

I just dont get you anymore.

Bye
-Matt

If you want to get your soul to heaven..

2005-03-14T15:33:10Z

Hey.
I haven't wrote in here much since I made it.
I just haven't been in the mood to tell people what's been going on.
Any ways, not much has been going on.
I wish I wasn't here anymore.
It would be so much easier.
Easier for everyone.
I think so any ways.

I truly do hate it here.
I don't know.
I don't know how anyone could be happy.

I thought I was happy.
But... I don't know..

I'm scared.
Scared I'm going to do it again.
I don't want to..
..but I see no reason not to.

What happened?
We drifted so far apart.
We don't even talk anymore.
I miss you.
You meant a lot to me.
But now your gone.
Like everyone else.

Why can't we not be sober?

2005-03-05T17:12:39Z

Hey.
It's Saturday. Incase you didn't know.
Yesterday was Friday, obviously.
Iunno, maybe they could've changed the days around...
Who knows?
Anyways,

I went to school yesterday, first time all week.
It was alright.
I didn't have to make up as much work as I thought I would've had to.
But I did have to stay after to get some help with my Algebra.
That sucked.
Mr. Costantino is a scary dude..
I don't like him much... oh well.

Then I came home, got changed.
Then I went to the store cause I was thirsty and there was nothing to drink.
Then when I got back Roman asked to have a catch.
So I did.
It was boring though.
..It usually is.

Then I got home.
Ordered a pizza 'cause me and Kevin were hungry.
I <3 Aramingo's Best.

Then Pat came down and asked me to walk him to Gamestop.
So I did.
But we had to go to his moms first.
Eh, lol.

Then we walked to Gamestop and he got what he wanted.
And on the way home his girly called him.
So we went to her house.
Then we left.

Then I got home,
And I watched the Sixers game.
They won.
'Cause Webber is a beast.

Then I played Roman in MVP Baseball.
Then he left.

Then I went online.
I talked to Brittany all night.
Well not all night.. 'cause she left early..
BUM!

Eh, that's all.

I'm Tired.
I'm Bored.
and I miss you....

"I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you,
just enough to bring you down"

- Matt...

Forever didn't last such a long time....

2005-03-03T14:08:27Z

Well. I havent updated in awhile.
Ive been kinda sick.
Well not kinda, I am sick.
IVe been sick since last Friday, it wont go away.
I dont care tho, I havent been in school all week.
Its fun.
I dont wanna go back.

Lifes been boring tho.
I aint doing anything anymore.
All I do is sit here..
Most of the time hoping she'll talk to me.
But she never does.
I dunno why.
I guess its my fault.
I guess.

Anyways I dont have much to write because I havent been to school.
Lifes boring.
Im sick.
I have an ear infection.
and a throat infection.
and this cough wont go away.
ahh.

Whatever.
Me no care anymore.
Yup. Dont care!
Haha Yay.

Matt.

Yeah.. right.

2005-02-25T15:20:00Z

Isn't it funny how when things get just a little bit better, everything else gets so much worse?

Oh oh.. and I love how I get blammed for 90% of the shit that happens.

Hah

-Matt

Why she had to go, I don't know.. She wouldn't say.

2005-02-21T20:48:34Z

Hey.
What's Up?
Just sitting here bored. I didn't have school today.
I'm so bored.
Roman and Kevin are playing NBA Live.
We just got done playing GoldenEye.
I can't believe we still play that game.
It's alteast 8 years old.
I don't care, I love it.

Anyways.
My weekend was pretty dull.

Friday:
I didn't do anything, didn't even go over Jackies.
I think Friday was a bad night.
I can't remember tho.
Oh well.

Saturday.
I'm pretty sure I just laid in bed all day Saturday.
I think Saturday was a bad night too.
I didn't sleep Saturday night.
I stayed up all night just sitting on my couch.
It was fun, I guess.

Sunday.
I didn't get any sleep.
Um.. I went over Jackies.
Erik and Eddie were there as well.
I played Resident Evil 4, for Erik.
Then we ate pizza..
and then we played Pictionary.
Me and Erik won.
Because we're beastly.
"ROCKET PENIS!"
lmao.

Okay.
That's all.. I guess.

Bye
- † Matt †

cool...

2005-02-16T00:48:39Z

I' m bored.
I'm always bored.
Today was really boring.
I can't really remember much of what I did tho.
I know I went to school.
Duh.
Well, I woke up.
Took a shower.
Went to school.
Went to my classes in the following order:
English
Accounting/Finance
Homeroom
Algebra
Chemistry
Lunch
Theology
American History
German
Another boring day.
I don't know if I'm gonna do anything later.
I want to. But I don't.
I dunno, I guess I'm just tired.
Oh well, I'll write more some other time.

Bye
-♠Matt†

Hi

2005-02-10T19:59:23Z

Okay, so its been awhile.
This week has been okay.

Monday
I don't really remember.
I know that not much happened in school.
I guess everyone was still depressed about the Eagles game.
Oh well.
I played football after school.
I still kick ass.

Tuesday.
Yesterday was a boing day.
I dont remember what I did much
I played football after school again.
I also talked to Megan on the phone last night.

Today.
Today was boring.
It was Ash Wednesday.
No meat *sigh*
lol.
I had no 8th period today.
That was nice.
Well now I'm done. lol

Bye
-Matt†

x_diluted_x @ 2005-02-04T14:12:00

2005-02-04T19:13:22Z

Why does life piss me off all the time?
Why cant I just be happy for once?
Everything always goes against me..
Why??

I wish I knew..
Oh well..

-Matt†

Lovely lovely lovely.

2005-02-01T20:15:27Z

Day was boring.
School sucked.
Passes Algebra.
Yay.
I dont know..
Dont care anymore.

Bye
- Matt †

My lovely Day... ha

2005-01-31T20:14:20Z

Hey.

Today was boring.
I don't like my First Period (English3) but I'm really good at it.
I don't like my Second Period (Accounting) either. I hate that class.
I really hate my Third Period (Algebra2) I really suck at that. Lol.
I don't like my Fourth Period (Chemistry) much either. I'm okay at it..
I like Fifth Period (Lunch) thats obvious. I'm fat.
I had no Sixth Period (Theology3) today.. I'm glad.
I don't like Seventh Period (American History) much either. Oh well..
I like my Eighth Period (German3) although I wish I had no eighth. Oh well.

Eh, I hate my life lately. Don't feel like getting into it.

Bye.
- †Matt†

YO!

2005-01-27T23:49:52Z

Hey

Well, today was alright.
I woke up..
Took a shower..
Got washed down..
Washed my hair..
Got dressed..
Went to school..
Went to my locker..
Got my pencil..
Went to take my first exam, which was Algebra..
I did alright, I think..
It was pretty easy..
Then I went to my second exam, which was American History..
It was really easy..
I went to my locker..
Put my things away..
Went to the El Station..
Got on the train..
Got off the train..
Waited for the bus, got on the bus, got off the bus..
Went home, Went online..
Played football..
We kicked ass as usual..
Then I came home..
Play AoM with Phill..
Then I watched a movie..
Now here I am..
All in all an okay day. lol.

That's all.

-Matt♠

x_diluted_x @ 2005-01-22T11:47:00

2005-01-22T16:48:01Z

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
*I died from suicide?
*I said I liked you?
*I kissed you?
*I lived next door to you?
*I started smoking?
*I stole something?
*I was hospitalized?
*I ran away from home?
*I got into a fight and you weren't there?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
*Personality?
*Eyes?
*Face?
*Hair?
*Clothes?
*Manners?
*Family?

WOULD YOU:
*Be my friend?
*Lie to make me feel better?
*Spread rumors about me?
*Keep a secret if I told you one?
*Loan me some cash?
*Hold my hand?
*Take a bullet for me?
*Keep in touch?
*Try and solve my problems?
*Love me?
*Date me?

x_diluted_x @ 2005-01-16T21:59:00

2005-01-17T03:04:42Z

Hey.
I havent really updated much lately.
I dunno why.
Well I probably do, but I dunno.
Whatever.
Ive been really bored.
I guess you could say depressed.
Im not sure tho.
I dont know whats going on much anymore.
Its all confusion?
Yeah.
Well this weekend wasnt bad.
Not bad at all.
I guess.
Friday I went over Jackies.
Then on Saturday I had to get up at 7.
I had Model UN.
It was in Collegeville.
It was fun.
or I should say funny.
The Chair was really hot.
lol.
And my group was funny.
Some girl was "huger"
Someone else said "let nip this in the bud"
HAHA.
Someone from my school was stealing silverware.
oh, and Icecream cones.
lmao.
That was great.
The bus ride home was depressing.
I fell asleep.
lol, I dont know why.
but I was really tired.
Today was alright(SUNDAY for you dumb people)
I got up around 11
I watched the Eagles kick the Vikings asses.
Roman was mad.
lol
Thats always fun.
Oh well.
Not much else I can write.
Yeah.
Life sucks.
To all the kids out there:
DONT grow old and DONT fall for girls.
Best advise you'll ever receive.
Okay Bye.

- Matt

x_diluted_x @ 2005-01-09T19:44:00

2005-01-10T00:45:21Z

That had to be the worst play off game I have EVER saw.

GREAT GAME GUYS! WAY TO SEND YOURSELVES HOME.

x_diluted_x @ 2005-01-07T17:34:00

2005-01-07T22:35:11Z

I really dont know what to do anymore. Im so confused about everything. I really dont know whats going on in my life anymore. Its so messed up. I really dont know what to think anymore or even what to do. Im not sleeping much at night, Ive been sick.. and I dunno.. whatever...

x_diluted_x @ 2004-12-30T13:08:00

2004-12-30T18:08:48Z

Todays my birthday!!

x_diluted_x @ 2004-12-27T20:48:00

2004-12-28T01:54:48Z

Hey. I havent updated in awhile.

I'll just tell ya about Christmas.

Morning:
I woke up at around 8:30
Mom was cooking breakfast
I ate, pancakes and bacon.
Then I opened presents
I got Clothes
Cds
Video Games

Afternoon:
Had a catch with my friend Roman.
Went home and played my games.
Then took a shower
Then Went to my sisters
I opened my present and
she got me the headphones I wanted.

Night:
Ate dinner
Slept
Went Home
Talked online

Okay thats all.

I'll update sometime later.

Bye
-Matt

Today is Tomorrows Yesteday

2004-12-17T21:37:03Z

Okay to start off its Friday.
Thank God.
Yes.
Woot.

Okay enough of that.
I guess I'll start my entry with Yesterday?
Sounds good to me.
Okay

Yesterday (Thursday for those few idiots that read my journal)
I woke up, I think I was on time, lol.
I got up at like 6:30..
Took a shower *wnink wink*
Got dressed (Sorry, I cant go to school nakie)
Went to school..
Went down to the Cafe and talked to Piggums and Joey/
Then went to 1st period.....

First Period, A.K.A. English3
I think.. we had a quiz.
Im not sure I really dont remember.
but I think I did excellent on it.
HAHA.
On to 2nd Period.....

Second Period, A.K.A. Accounting/Finance
Um, this class is so stupid.
I dont wanna be an accounting
so It could go to hell.
:-D
On to HR

HR, A.K.A. Homeroom
I think it was NCR schedule
So we had to read.
Oh joy!!
On to hell.. I mean 3rd Period....

Third Period, A.K.A. Algebra2
Oh God.. I hate Algebra...
...WITH A PASSION.
The only thing good about it is
that Mr. Costantino is kinda funny..
and thats pushing it..
On to 4th Period.....

Fourth Period, A.K.A. Chemistry
I think we took a test.
I dont like Chemistry that much.. lol
on to 5th Period!!!!....

Fifth Period, A.K.A. LUNCH!!
I love food.
Lmao.
Thats all I gotta say
:-D
On to 6th Period.....

Sixth Period, A.K.A. Theology3
I dont like this class..
Its really boring..
but for some reason..
Im really good in it.
on the 7th Period...

Seventh Period, A.K.A Honors American History
I like this class..
Kinda..
yeah..
Dont remember what we did..
But that dont matter.
On to 8th Period..

Eigth Period A.K.A. Honors German3/4
I think the German language is fascinating.
'nuff said.

Then I went to Model UN..
Did some stuff
Got a ride home
And then the rest of my day.
Then slept.
Yay.

Today (Friday for them idiots again)
I woke up.
Late.. now thats normal
Got showered. Dressed. School.

Eins
Today was Novel Friday.
so I read.

Zwei
Um.. he didnt show up for class
So it was awesome

Drei
I didnt do my homework
He was pissed
End of story

Vier
I got a 90 on the test we took yesterday
yay

Fumf
Ate lunch and did Theology HW

Sechs
Sat there.
Almost fell asleep
Acouple Times..

Sieben
Got out Career Tests back..
^ I'll talk about that in a bit..

Acht
We had an oral quiz
I think I did good.

Went home.
And now here I am.

Career Test:
Oh my God, the funniest thing ever.
Everyone in the class scored like 70's
and so on.
My highest grade was a 43
Thats awesome.
Well I dont feel like typing anymore.
So thats all for today folks.
Come back soon!
;-)

Bye
-Matt

Wow.

2004-12-15T19:25:35Z

Okay. Wow. Its been like forever since I last updated.
So, I'll start with my Weekend.

Saturday.
Saturday I had Model UN (Yes Im a nerd :-D).
I had to get up at 7, because I had to be at North by 8,
So we could leave for Deleware.
Luckily for me, I had no sleep the other night.
Yeah....
So the Debate was okay, really long and boring.
But I survived, obviously.
I didnt win any awards, but I think North won acouple.
Okay so then the ride home was shorter than the ride up,
It always seems that way.

Sunday.
Sunday I had the Model UN football game.
We lost, but I had 3 catches and such.
I also won around 15 dollars.
Not as much as I usually win.
Oh well.
Then I came home and put the Packers game on.
Packers game :-D
They won, 16-13 over the Lions.
Not the best win, but a wins a win!
Okay so then that day was over.

Monday.
Monday I woke up all sore.
I got up, and was like "Dad I dont think I can go to school"
and he made me get a shower.
I took a shower and was still sore. Got out and asked if I could stay home.
He said no.
Then I put my school bag on and was hurting bad, I asked my mom and she said
to stay home.
So I didnt go to school.

Tuesday.
Got up, took a shower, went to school.

1st Period is always lame. I dont like Mrs. Morris or the English Language.

2nd Period, I hate. I didnt even ask for the class. Accoutning, boo!

3rd Period, I hate Algebra with a passion, but Mr. Uhhh makes it funny.

4th Period we watched a movie.

5th Period I ate lunch.

6th Period we watched a movie.

7th Period I sat there.

8th Period I sat there.

I went home and was bored all day.

Today.(Wednesday)

1st Period had a pop quiz.

2nd Period I still hate.

3rd Period I still hate.

4th Period we watched a movie again.

5th Period I ate lunch again.

6th Period I sat there.

7th Period I sat there.

8th Period I sat there.

Now here I am.
Boy do I have an exciting life.
HAH!!

Bye
-Matt

Ich liebe dich! :-D

Hope your happy now Katiee!

2004-12-06T20:47:05Z

Well. Packers lost to the Eagles.
The Packers defense totally let me down.
But thats all Im gonna say about that.

Today was an okay today, pretty boring and kinda slow.
I had no 8th Period so I got to go home early.
^ Only good thing to happen today.

1st Period was boring.
I really dont like English.
Theres no point in learning it.
Im never gonna use anything we learn.
and I dont like Mrs. Morris. People say shes hott..
but shes like 50. Yeah...

2nd Period.
I hate this class with a passion.
Even though its really easy.
But I didnt ask for it.. so I hate it.

Homeroom.
Sat there for 15 minutes bored.

3rd Period.
Grr.
I hate Mr. Costantino.
I think hes a jackass..
but he can be funny.
And besides I dont like Algebra..
..or any type of Math at that.

4th Period.
Ooh Chemistry..
..youd think it was fun..
..but Mr. Hogan dulls everything.
MKAY!

5th Period.
Lunch.
Finally something I like.
Yeah, I was hungry today, lol.

6th Period.
Theology, I wish they didnt make us take that class.
I find it pointless.
God is good.
He will help you.
Bullshit. Yeah! lol

7th Period.
Mr. Stonesifer is a good teacher.
And I like history...
But I dont like the class, lol.
I dont know how I got Honors either..
but whatever.

8th Period.
Oh wait, I didnt have one!

Home.
I got home, went online.
Got something to drink.
Sat and watched TV for about a half hour.
Went back online.
Now Im talking to someone.
Yay.

Bye
-Matt

x_diluted_x @ 2004-12-03T21:20:00

2004-12-04T02:21:20Z

Die.
Die.
Die.
Die.
Die.

Yay.

Bye

If the sun refused to shine... Id still be lovin' you

2004-12-03T01:10:28Z

I need to stop being depressed..
I dont even know why I am..
I should be happy..
I have great friends..
I have great family.. well sometimes..
But theres something missing..
Shes missing..

I wish I had a different life.
different looks..
different personality..
I wish I lived in a different place..
I hate the people around here..
People I dont even know call me a "fat nerd"
Yeah.. Im loving it..

I just stand there.. and act like I dont pay attention..
but it really pisses me off..
Okay Im done..

Bye
-The Fat Nerd...

Blah

2004-11-29T20:56:15Z

Today was blah
I feel blah
School was blah
Everything was blah

Blah
- Matt